Archive for the ‘Extreme Shyness’ Category
There Is A Difference Between Rudeness and Shyness no comments
Fuck, I absolutely hate my relatives. My aunt was just off the phone to my mum accusing me of being ‘rude’ just because I won’t engage in small-talk with her when I’m with her on holidays and so on. I get this shit a lot from people who should know better.
I am not a rude person, I just don’t know what to say to people at the best of times. I’m of the opinion that if I have nothing worthwhile to say, then I won’t say it all. I certainly won’t be directly rude towards a person as I know how much that can hurt people deep inside.
I stand by my shyness. I can’t help who I am and I’m not prepared to change for anyone, lest not someone who is not even willing to try to understand.
I Have Awful Pee Shyness. I Cannot Use The Toilet In Public. no comments
Whenever I’m at the restroom, I’m simply unable to have a pee if there is anyone in the urinals right beside me. I’m terrified that they will be laughing at the absurd noises that my body produces when I’m ready to secrete waste. I’m mortified when I hear the noises and smells they produce when they’re in their cubicle too.
Even if the cubicle was thicker than the Berlin Wall, I’d still be unable to go. The worst thing is occasionally I’ll think I’ll be able to pass something into the toilet, then my heart will start racing with excitement until it subsides again and I just have this general feeling of disappointment.
Sometimes I wish I had no shame like everyone else on this messed up planet. That I could crap my brains out in the restroom without having to care what other people think.